Bored and tired

[betweensunandmoon]

I feel like a stagnant pond. I'd probably feel better if I spent less time browsing inactive LJ-communities, playing computer games, and watching old YouTube videos, but the only real-world activities I have any interest in are my weekly art classes and voice lessons. I drew pictures all the time when I was a little kid, but I still draw like a little kid when my art teacher isn't there to help me, and that's embarrassing. I used to like reading, but nowadays it just feels like a chore. I would have sat and listened to music for hours if I could, but now I wait impatiently for the song to be over. I don't even watch as many movies as I used to. My life is an endless cycle of school, homework, and Internet, one I don't know how to break. What's wrong with me?

Comments

[igenlode]

By the sounds of it -- drop the Internet.

(If you're not enjoying something but still compulsively doing it, that's a classic sign that you should stop -- it's like getting mental indigestion from reading too many books one after another, or spending too long in a museum.)

I'd suggest a creative or physical activity: when you have the camelious hump, try digging in the garden, for instance ;-) https://gurglewords.wordpress.com/2012/07/30/tuesday-poem-the-camels-hump-is-an-ugly-lump-rudyard-kipling/

Or try cooking (less distressing than handcrafts, since the botched first attempts can be eaten to destroy the evidence), or a picturesque walk/cycle ride. It sounds as if you need less passive consumption and more activity that actually achieves something.
Even growing plants from seed can help - sprout cress on your flannel :-D

Are you practising for your voice lessons? That should be occupying a chunk of time every day, if you are.
I have the advantage of a vast ancestral library of songsheets, so I can just pull a stack of random (alphabetised rather than sorted by genre) songs off the shelf and sightread through them as a break from the specific exercises I've been set.